All you had to do was, stay.

"Here you are now

calling me up

but I don't know what to say"

Ok, sorry...got off on a little T.S. kick there. Maybe since it's Girl Scout season I should have started off with a song I learned way back when... 

"Make new friends, but keep the old

one is silver and the other's gold

a circle's round it has no end

that's how long I want to be your friend"

Hold on, what am I thinking. Now I just want to eat Girl Scout cookies and that wasn't my point. (Beware! The little devils are at every grocery store, on every corner, and even pulling wagons around your neighborhood as I type.)

I'm sure we all have gone through this...losing or letting go of people only to reconnect with them later in life. For whatever reason, fall outs happen. Nowadays, Facebook is our biggest tool for finding individuals, even if we don't want to. "People you may know" is more like people you may not want to add.(Ok, maybe that's just me.) However, there are those that you come across that make your heart happy. 

Over the years I've made new friends and definitely lost some along the way. There were those friends of mine that, ultimately, we grew apart, and others I knew their presence was unhealthy. No matter how bad I wanted them to change, I knew I had to cut them out of my life. Yet, lately (ok, not lately...the last few years) I have felt like every time I realize a "new" friend I've made isn't friend material, someone from my past pops up. We reconnect and it's as though no time has passed. They fill two voids at once. (For the record, not all new friends are shitty. You know who you are.)

About 11 years ago I learned the hard way about regrets when I lost a close friend in a car accident. Things were left unsaid and I wish I could go back in time but I can't. Fortunately I was given the opportunity to "connect" with this friend back in September, and having someone (who knew nothing about what happened) tell me things helped ease the pain. It's taken me up until now to let go of the guilt I felt for never reconnecting or being able to say I'm sorry. 

When people come back in to my life it makes me wonder. Do they have things they need to get off their chest and their own issues they need to sort out? Why did we grow apart in the first place? Did we need time to grow up and get our lives together? For whatever reason...forgive, forget, and hope I'm forgiven as well. I know I'm not a great friend, but a new decade for me means trying to be.  

Lesson of the day:
If you have regrets and need to make peace, 

or even feel the urge to reconnect with someone, 

DO IT. 

Like, now. 

Tomorrow is never guaranteed. 

Girl Scouts honor.